Stuck in a whirlwind.

My life has never moved so fast as it has lately. It's nice in a small way....but just frustrating in most others. The things I wanna do, never have time to become anything but "I wish I could...." All the "musts" push their way to the front. I have alot of "want to's" that are "musts" in disguise but they still get forgotten daily.

Frustrating me even more is the fact that I'm carting my fail of a husband around this week & next until he can get his license back (long story). It really sucks. He works midnights so at 6:30 pm, I have to lug his butt to work & at 7:00 AM, I have to wake up my kids before they even wanna be up, throw them out in the winter cold, all to pick up his butt. I have nothing nice to say about this. He's also sucking all my gas & it's not exactly cheap! He was so generous & gave me $10 yesterday. WOW, thanks, that got me 3 gallons. So nice of you to share. In case you didn't know, I'm getting a divorce.

Back to the subject....

I should have added something to my resolution list (as you can see, blogging daily is one of those things that gets put on the backburner). I MUST turn this into a MUST--->studying for my pharmacy tech license. It's one of those things that was super important to me in the beginning & now is increasingly less important as time goes on. I planned on having my test done & over with by the end of the year. Here we are headed for mid-January & I'm still not completely ready. Walmart is even PAYING for it & I can't motivate myself. Gahhhhh. I'm so scared I'll go there & fail that I just keep putting it off. Guess that doesn't help me.

I have the day off tomorrow & I plan on enjoying it thoroughly :) I love Sundays off!! It's 9pm & I should probably crack open my study book. I'm noshing on Sluggles gummies & being lazy so far...if you haven't tried those gummies, you MUST :)

Truth #5- Something I hope to do in my lifetime.

Something I hope to do in my lifetime.

(30 days of truth, hosted by The Young Retiree)

This one is pretty tough because I feel like I haven't accomplished very much in my life compared to what I WANT to accomplish. I started out married life & children pretty early & didn't get to experience alot of things that most do.

I'm going to cheat & name a few things I'd really love to do....not sure if I'll be able to but I'm gonna try at least.

1. Be the best Christian I can be & prepare myself for heaven! This is something my immature mind didn't really understand even a couple years ago, even after I was baptized at 18. I'm glad that I'm maturing more now & wanna be the best I can be. I am working on it more now than ever, dropping bad habits one at a time.

2. I want to go to school for SOMEthing....like I've mentioned before, I'm very very indecisive. I change my mind monthly as to what I'd like to go to school for. I just never seem to be able to find my perfect fit. The one thing I'd love to do is almost unreachable, especially at this point in my life. Maybe one day.

3. I want to speak Spanish fluently. This has always been a random dream of mine, to be able to speak a foreign language as if it were my native language. I just think it's a great skill to have.

Of course I could name mannnnnyy other things I'd love to be able to do, these are just a few that I think about the most. And these are purely ME, not in relation to my husband or kids. After all, this challenge is about ME and my truths, not what I want to see them accomplish. Selfish? Naw, this is my blog after all. Haha!

 I will be participating in a Walk For Life for a local organization on Oct 9th. I'm looking for all the sponsors I can get to put towards this organization. It provides women with education about abortion, post-abortion counseling, free pregnancy tests & more. You don't have to live near me to contribute. Please contact me if you'd like to donate to this wonderful pro-life cause.